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Numbers:

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Numbers I recently went to the doctor because I had had a pretty terrible sinus infection. After being miserable for 5 days, I’d had it. I had done every home remedy I could think of and nothing was working.  🤦🏻‍♀️ I know numbers on a scale are just numbers... but when I got off the scale at the doctors office, I immediately felt depressed. What? Were my eyes really seeing that number?  😔  Sadness immediately kicked in.  We see numbers every day. How much our paycheck is, the guest count for a party we’re throwing, our height, weight, how many calories we’ve consumed, the time I have left so I can leave school/work, how many people like our posts on social media, and etc. Why do we care so much? Our lives revolve around it at times. As I was driving home after picking up my prescription, the tears just came. I felt discouraged, sad, and disappointed with myself. At the same time I knew these thoughts were from Satan, because Heavenly Father wouldn...

The joys of life ☺️

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Bear River Seminary  🐻❤️ I have a lot of emotions that are in my head and my heart this week. I am coming to the close of first trimester student teaching for seminary at Bear River high school. These kids have stolen my heart and I can’t describe the amount of LOVE I have for them and the love that our Father in Heaven does.  😭♥️   I have learned so much about myself, about the kids I’ve had the privilege of teaching, and what I am learning! They are truly AMAZING and so smart and strong! I worry a lot about them, I’m praying for them constantly, and I’m having a hard time thinking about how they won’t be in my class anymore.  😭  They’ve blessed my life so much!! But changes are a part of life-Something we can rely on. I feel like a mother hen letting all her “chicks” go off into the world. Haha But they can do it!  I’ve learned so much about MY Savior Jesus Christ, who is my brother and dear sweet friend.  🙏🏻♥️  I’ve learned more...

Greater sorrow prepares us for greater joy!

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As I read and re read and listened to Elder Budge’s talk “Consistent and resilient trust” the phrase “sorrow prepares you for joy” wouldn’t leave my mind. The more sorrow we experience here in mortality, the more joy we will one day have. We are taught that to know the sweet taste, we must first know and taste the bitter. (James 3:11, D&C 29:39) We must pass through sorrow to know of that pure joy that will come. We can better appreciate the joy we experience and the sorrow we feel because we know the difference through personal experiences. We’ve been through that ourselves and KNOW. I am grateful for the trials I have passed through. They have been some of the most challenging and difficult times of my life that have made me into the person God wants me to be. But don’t get me wrong, going through them at the moment, is hard. Being grateful for them in the moment? That is a totally different question. Haha it’s not easy, but I think that’s the point. Trials aren’t SUPPOSED ...

Forgiveness:

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Forgiveness: I share this experience with you, not to make you feel bad for me, but to be real. Its ok not to be ok sometimes. The last 24 hours of my life have been hard. Some things that have happened have brought me to my knees. As I cry out and plead with my Heavenly Father to help me understand, I’m reminded that my anger and sorrow is real. I still feel numb and at times still heartbroken, but I feel my Saviors love. The love He freely gives me. I woke up with a strange sense of peace. ♥️ I taught on Matthew 18 in seminary today. Jesus teaches us to forgive 70X7. That we place our burdens on our Savior Jesus Christ and therein find peace. Peace only the savior can bring. Comfort that only He can give, and a sense of love only He loves us with. It doesn’t make those hard things easier necessarily, but I know that in my savior Jesus Christ, I can have my burdens lifted and that peace restored. I still have angry feelings, sadness, confusion, and thoughts of “why”, but I know ...

Putting one foot in front of the other, especially on those cloudy days.☀️

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Jealousy and comparing ourselves, hit in a couple different ways. You never want it to happen, especially to you, but it does. It makes you feel like it’s slave. Every little thing that happens, makes your brain, your heart, and your thoughts explode. You ignite this fire that’s been slowing kindling and now it’s coming right at you with a giant roar and there’s no stopping it. Jealously hurts friendships, relationships, and just about everything you can name. It comes like that fire, scorching everything in its way and leaving you back to square one, or feeling even worse than before. In my personal opinion, it is closely related to comparing and it acts just like it too. Once jealously and comparisons come, the JOY you had is GONE. You feel like a piece of clothing on a washboard. Getting ran back and forth, up and down on the board, until you’re bleeding and raw. I didn’t know how jealously is for you, but this is how it is for me. It slowly consumes me. It makes me thi...

Daily uniforms, putting on the whole armor of God!

As I woke up the other morning and thought about what I needed to get ready so I could go to my job at Olive Garden, I thought about my uniform: Black pants, black socks, black non slip shoes, black button up, my Olive Garden name tag, black apron, my award pins, my black book, and my black coin pouch- all make up my uniform. In a way the uniform becomes my identity. The definition of uniform is “remaining the same in all cases and at all times; unchanging in form or character”. It promotes a oneness, an equality.   I thought about what uniforms we put on daily, and what each of them represent. Pajamas (or in my case a nightgown,  😂 ) church clothes, seminary teaching clothes, relaxing clothes, workout clothes, work clothes, etc. Whichever “uniform” I put on, it almost becomes my identity and I am that person while I am wearing it. Do I give it power? Do I let it become who I am? Does it define me as a person? What uniforms do you wear?  Digging even de...

The key to everything is to keep an eternal perspective!

Well friends! I made it through this week! I woke up with the flu Sunday, which made it so that I couldn’t speak in church. Unlike most people, I love speaking in church, and was very disappointed when I found out that wasn’t going to happen. I prayed and prayed that I would feel better.  Monday, I was going to start teaching seminary and I needed all my strength. Monday comes and I still don’t feel amazing, but luckily it was just a little ish bug, and I was able to go to seminary. Throughout the week, I felt so sick. I had so much on my mind- stress (the main cause of most of my sickness this week), where I am going in life, feeling sick and tired about feeling sick, and honestly feeling a little frustrated with my life. Why weren’t things happening that I wanted to happen when I wanted them to happen?  I was going over this last week what’s been happening in my life: teaching seminary, pushing through those trials in life, and what I’ve learned this week about my S...