I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it.
Warning: long post ahead! I was debating on posting this, but I couldn’t get it out of my head, so here it is. By definition, GRIEF is intense sorrow. Sadness rips through you. You cry and cry and cry. To give your heart and soul to something that you wanted to badly, only to find out that it wouldn’t happen. This is a special kind of hard. Then reality sets in: I did not get hired as a seminary teacher. My posts have always been vulnerable and real. They’ve been happy and uplifting, raw with my emotions, and of my testimony. To say that I’m devastated, is just an understatement. I’m crushed. I’m shocked. I’m sad. I’m hurt. And just as I think I’m done crying, it starts all over again. This was my dream. What I wanted to do. It’s taken so long to figure out what I’ve wanted to do and now that it’s gone, I honestly don’t know what to do. The crazy thing about grief and disappointment is, that no matter how it comes, it changes you. You become different. Trials are meant to