My body: ❤️

 New post: My body:

Warning ⚠️ vulnerable post ahead! 

I’ve always been more on the plus size side and have really tried hard to work on myself to become more confident with my body. I’ve tried to feel comfortable in my own skin and to love and accept my body in every stage, because EVERY stage is beautiful! But I’m not perfect at it and some days are hard.

I’ve recently gained some weight that has come with the stresses of life (uggg it’s the worst) life changes, etc. and have found myself absolutely CONSUMED with my body and how “awful” I think I look. 😓 I’m the girl in a room thinking of my weight and if I’m the heaviest. Constantly comparing my body to everyone else’s. I always thought that I had to have this “perfect” body to feel accepted and that if I didn’t fit this standard of beauty that I would have no value. 

I find myself comparing my body to everyBODY that comes along. I remember for almost every birthday growing up, secretly wishing to be “skinny” and thinking that if I never got married that it’d be because of my body. 

Pretty toxic thoughts huh? 😣

Being a little older, hopefully wiser, and thinking of one day having children of my own, this picture below has always stuck with me. I can’t remember where I came across it, but it broke my heart. Most of us have wanted to “change” our bodies in some way because we haven’t felt like they’ve been good enough. We constantly compare ourselves to the women of the world; in magazines, movies, and around us and how our bodies don’t look like theirs. 

I don’t ever want my own daughter (or son because men feel the pressures too) thinking the thoughts I’ve had. I don’t want her to think she has to be “skinny” to be accepted and to be able to thrive in this world. I don’t want her to feel consumed with how she’s not good enough. Yes we need to do what we can to be healthy, but it’s so much more than that. It’s knowing deep down how amazing you are and that you don’t need to be anything or be anyone else, other than who you already are. You have so much value and worth already! ❤️

Writing this post has been pretty freeing and tears were definitely shed as I felt Gods love for me. He loves me for who I am right now, especially the Lyssa who has gained a few pounds. He silently tells me that I’m already enough and that we’ll work on things together. One step at a time, one day at a time. 🤍

I heard a quote a while back that said something like-“…your whole mission in life isn’t to lose weight and be skinny…” It’s much much more! Every stage is a beautiful stage. Take whatever steps you feel are the best steps for you to help you feel more confident. Please don’t waste your life away having toxic thoughts and hating your body. But WHEN those thoughts come, KICK them out! 👊🏻 Your body needs you. My body needs me. Your purpose here is so much BIGGER than you realize and I hope all of you will take the steps that are needed towards more self love, acceptance, and kindness to our bodies. ❤️

My hope is that all of you reading this will be reminded to love yourself and your body. Love you all. Thanks for always accepting me 🥰❤️🥹

Lyssa